phRayed kNott

Apprehension is a part of nature. Either you’re bold or you aren’t! It’s that plain and simple. Do people who speak up (even out of turn and are out of order) intrigue you sometimes? They do me. I wanted that for me. That is me; now, to a point. I do speak up far more than I used to for myself. What I mean by that is, I used to not speak up at all. That was the beauty of having bold surroundings. So many have spoken up for me. They sometimes would say things that I (in my head) would refute. I recall being in elementary school, and my (at the time) best friend stood up to a boy (a boy, wow!) on my behalf. My problem…I would think too much. I’d ponder over what I should’ve said, done or not done. When I was finished thinking, the situation is so far in the rearview, I’d forgotten what led up to it. My stomach would knot up and the nerves would go wild! I’m super proud to say I speak up on my own volition a lot more and ponder far less than I used to. Advocate of self…that’s one of the tallest STANDS you can take!